Being Pregnant Round 2

    I remember getting pregnant with my daughter and being nervous, anxious and excited all at once. The morning sickness was awful and didn't end until at least 5 months of pregnancy and overall the pregnancy was in no means super easy. However, now that I am four months pregnant with baby #2 I am realizing some distinct differences in my pregnancies. I felt bad to admit that I wasn't as excited with the second one as I was with my daughter. It does not mean I have less love but the morning sickness and taking care of a three year old made life a little different. The sickness has been much worse this second time around and of course I know exactly what to expect this time around. I also don't have the luxury to sleep all the time and relax while dealing with pregnancy sickness because I had to be a mother. I think I also got an extra dose of scared shitless this time around since I would now have two children. As I now get a slight let up from the intense sickness I can almost see a light at the end of the tunnel which is nothing less than inspiring. I honestly still believe that the process itself of having a second child is much scarier because I know what TO expect this time around. It also is slightly inspiring because I know what to expect. Needless to say I don’t think I will EVER understand women who never felt a day of morning sickness during pregnancy. I have friends who were privileged to experience an “unrealistic fairytale pregnancy” and I say the same thing to them. You Have NO Idea! Thankfully I wasn’t alone in my woes because my rock star mother had similar (actually much worse) pregnancy sickness experiences. Her companionship and understanding felt like sunshine during a tornado. In lieu of sounding negative of cynical I will say I am excited to find out the sex of the baby at the end of the month and I am excited for the next experiences having another baby brings! (through sanity and insanity) ;)