Toddler Mommy

I have written many blogs on how it is to be a mom now to a toddler. Which in a nut shell is described by these words; crazy, fun, silly, exhausting, hair pulling, a learning experience. As life, we have good days and bad days, which is the same for toddlers. However I have come to find when your toddler is happy and in a good mood, it sometimes can transform your day into a good one. However if they are sick, cranky or having a bad day, the mom seems to take on that bad day also. I think for the first time I have begun to feel fear again about being a parent. We all fear it during pregnancy and when the baby is born because we don't want to break him or her. Then we panic if they don't hit the exact milestone at the right month. However this fear is a new one, which is when you discipline or teach new things to your child and you take a step back and look at yourself. I usually say, "Oh my God, I can't get mad at her, she doesn't get it!", or " Oh Goodness, I am sounding like my mother!". They have the ability to make you snap and to get the worst of you. I mean life with a toddler includes crying over not getting our own way, yelling no about a million times a day and fighting over eating, walking verses a stroller and the new habits they pick up on from you. I sometimes put my daughter in bed at night and sit on my couch and think, "Thank God". I started to feel guilty, as if I was dreading my daughter being awake. However I am now getting it. It is not that we don't love and adore them, but we are human too. For many your a wife and a mother, which includes a lot of work and at the end of the day your spent. I think it is all normal now because if we didn't feel this way we would be robots.

I do think though that parenting and teaching your child also changes who you are as a person. You may inherit patience, looking at life differently, or always knowing your little one can bring a smile onto your face. I seize moments now, which translates that I make everyday a new one. All mothers go crazy which is normal, and we all seem to unite on facebook with support for one another.

It has come to my own attention that through having a baby I lost me. When I say this I mean I lost hobbies and I lost some things that I love. I am so consumed in my other roles as a daughter, mother, wife, and niece, that I have forgotten what I like. I have decided to regain hobbies and find myself again with my daughter in my life. It means new hobbies possibly and rekindling my own personal self. So Cheers Mama's to You! and Remembering to Yourselves also!