As many of my friends have known, I am currently unemployed....again. I was laid off in 2009 and then again this past November. As much as I enjoy being able to have this time with my daughter, it is a bittersweet time. I am in constant turmoil over money, being able to sustain living and paying bills, and being a good mother to my child. The juggling act is exhausting and debilitating most days. I of course apply to anything and everything when my daughter naps or when my parents and husband can give me a few hours to myself. I find that as a parent it is even harder to feel down in the dumps or stressed because life doesn't stop for you. As much as I would like to dedicate more time and energy into job hunting, I am a mother and cannot afford the luxury. At the same time my little pumpkin is reaping the benefits. Since it is lent, I have decided not to give up something, but to change a bad habit of mine, which has been negativity about my career and future financially. I try to not let it affect my mood or days, but that in itself is a full time job. I commend all stay at home moms because it is a full time job, and sometimes you pray for a little adult time or conversation. I would gladly accept the job if I was financially able to do that. However, I am not and therefore I live in turmoil day to day trying to be positive.
"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it." ~Mary Engelbreit
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