Reflection Poem

On those quiet days, I would blame you for stealing my youth.

The fierce fire that flared up within me and leaked out with my words and smiles, was suddenly a mere candle flicker flame.

I never knew who you were, or what your name was but you were familiar,

As if I knew you well and I trusted you regardless of how you consumed my body.

Days could be happy and fun, but they sheltered the inevitable

An indefinable darkness that placed a barrier between me and reality,

And the love that has and always surrounded me.

Running tirelessly through a maze of confusion in which I felt I had to claw my way out despite any scars or damage,

Till finally life was not a privilege or journey, but a burden.

Death was not truly the destination, but more of a indecisive option, which felt like the only option.

Drowning in confusion, and when I came back to reality, I realized the darkness remained.

The journey of life continued and I ran ahead as if I was reaching the finish line, only to trip and fall numerous times.

Falling continued to be clawing my way out of a maze until my defining moment.

The moment I looked up and realized God was with me and listening.

Nothing became easier but instead my life became justified.

At the moment I met my blessing from God,

Everything left, mazes melted, and I looked into the mirror and saw me, and then looked down and saw myself in my beautiful baby's eyes.

The darkness surrendered to the sunshine, the sunshine of Irelyn.