"Grandmas hold our tiny hands for just a little while, but our hearts forever."
Today I went to the hospital to visit my grandmother, which I have done all week. She is confined to her hospital bed from breaking her hip and having a stroke. On top of all this she is suffering from alzheimer's disease. It is very heartbreaking because she and I have always had a special relationship, and now she has become a very sad and confused woman. It is heartbreaking to watch because it is the worst way to leave this world, when she goes. I have a dedication to her as her granddaughter to be there for her, as I will be there for my own parents. She nurtured me as a child and I will be there holding her hand until the end. My daughter lights up her face and completes her world for those few moments, and it is very special for me. I have been faced with comments recently about the amount of time I spend with her and my family at the hospital and fighting with health care personnel on her behalf. Since I am only the granddaughter, I should not be the one doing all of these things apparently. Her own children must deal with this themselves I am told. Did I mention I love my mother and my aunts and uncles and how heartbreaking and difficult this is for them to handle?
I like to think I am the sane mind in the moment of emotional chaos (yes, me, I know it is strange) and I will continue to be there for my family because that is what a good family does for one another. I become angered that people cannot see or understand this concept, and have the nerve to question me. It not only upsets me during this emotional period, but I become annoyed and angry. I will not discuss how all of these problems my family and I are facing will become worse for future families thanks to Obama. Why has the world let go of the importance of family? When life turns upside down, your family should always be there for you. I realize everyone does not have this, but those who do and do not care, have missed out of a very important part of life.
I will end my venting....because I am sure no one wants to hear me rant and rave :) I will end with this....
"To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there." ~Barbara Bush
My grandaddy also had alzheimers, and I saw the toll it took on my dad, aunt, and uncle. I wish I could have been there like you were for your relatives. it hurt so much to see them so upset. the fact that your daughter brightens her day is something to cherish forever, and enjoy any minute you can get of that :-)
ReplyDeletepeople just need to realize there is a difference in helping out as a grandaughter because you want to, versus helping out becuase noone else will (as a different situation with a friend of mine has gone). your family is so lucky to have you!