Keeping Positive-August 2009

Well today was stressful because Irelyn has been screaming off and on all day with gas pain. She went for her check up Tuesday and is now 9 1/2 lbs, but he put her on Good Start for gas. So again we did the formula switch, and of course it didn't work, so she is back on Nutramagen. I am thinking all the changes this week has upset her insides, but I get not a moment to myself through the day. She takes mini naps inbetween feeding and being fussy and screaming. When I finally got her to take an afternoon nap I napped with her (lying on me). She is almost two months and I wondering when this all will pass? She goes Monday for an upper GI and I hate her having to get it but maybe it will show something. I feel like an awful mother because I adore my daughter but I almost dread the next day because I have no idea what kind of day it will be with her right now. She has happy moments and plays but then screams again, and it is so stressful and it makes me crazy. I am trying to just get through all of this and be positive. Its just very stressful, I think I am a good mother, but I feel like I am loosing my mind some days. The day of her baptism, she was awesome! so my family doesn't get what I go through (besides my parents who are so great with her and help me so much). So I am on a mission to get my emotions calm and to get through this so my pumpkin will be happy. She is such a good baby too! She is in so much pain though! I am ordered pizza since making dinner could not happen, and having any helpful comments, I appreciate everyone's advice always :)