The Home Stretch

    I am officially due in a month with our baby boy. I am excited to meet my little angel and to no longer be pregnant :) However, I feel like the last month is the longest time of the pregnancy because you know your so close and it makes you think about it all the time. However, your little one will arrive when its good and ready and you have no clue when that will be unfortunately. I think discomfort also plays a huge part in the waiting game because you officially become uncomfortable, swollen, and ready to have the baby on the outside of your body. I feel badly for my daughter because I cannot be active with her outside when playing and let's face it, I cannot even get on the floor with her either. I think she is very understanding most of the time, but I am sure to a four year old that a pregnancy must seem like eternity (I mean it does to me!). I honestly believe my biggest fear throughout this pregnancy was how my little girl would react to a new edition to the family. She is the apple of our eye and will always remain, but I know she will feel a little left out when he arrives. I am constantly telling her how much I love her and how important she is to daddy and I. I try to discuss the changes with her over and over to get her prepared even though she is going to have to accept the changes whether she likes it or not ;)
   I am already so thrilled that my parents are so involved in my daughter's life and I am even more thrilled to know that my son will also get the chance for that relationship. My grandmother is 94 and I was so excited to have  her at my wedding, and to have her know my daughter these past four years. I cannot believe that she will now be able to meet my son. I am so blessed by God to have such amazing parents and such an amazing family. I thank God daily for all my blessings because you can never be too appreciative. I think as I have grown, married and had children, I have truly been able to stop and see all the blessings in my life. I know for a fact that I did not see them all before and I regret that now. My daughter has changed my life in so many amazing ways, that I feel blessed that God is giving me another baby.
    I sometimes think I sound like a burned out pregnant mama, so I have to remind my friends and family that there is more in my life than looking forward to not being pregnant anymore. I know many women love being pregnant, blah blah (no offense to anyone) but I completely don't agree with you. I think it is a hardship you endure to receive an amazing blessing, and you have every right to be moody, bitchy and ready in the end. I think that is why epidurals were invented because we are at the end of our rope by the end!